Shri Narayan Upadhyay- About me (Intro)

Hi, my name is Shri Narayan Upadhyay and I am from Uttar Pradesh, India. It’s been a while I was thinking about writing and blogging but I was not able to figure out on which topic or area should I write and so I had just started it anyways. In my life (till now) I have been considered as a confused guy full of questions and rare/incomplete understanding of many things. I don’t know the reason but it is now easy for me to stop thinking all the time. Most of the time I raise the question to myself on every little simple thing for example, how it works, what was behind this/that, etc. I know it could be a common thing for you many people but sometimes I pay an enormous amount of attention (as per my cerebral capacity) on one single thing for long hours. And sometimes it is very difficult for me to understand even a simple thing.

At this point of time, even I don’t know many basic/simple kinds of stuff but I have realized one thing in a very effective way which is there exists “N” number of ways/processes and aspects for any individual to live this human life to the fullest. I came to know some of these ways from various sources which I think are 100% legit and most importantly “it really works”. I will definitely share my take on them later on in my blogs.

Like I said, there are a lot of things that I don’t know but whatever little kinds of stuff I know I will share with you guys in the most realistic and natural way. I certainly believe that in order for us (human being of this generation) to live a better life, we have to at least touch (not necessarily master) some of the most fundamentals aspects of the life. You can’t really say that I am best at 5 things and that’s all matters. I sometimes feel like I am testing nature itself without knowing the results and consequences. For example, I test/analyze how my brain process/thinks, when and why and at what speed my hands are moving, etc. You know what, people usually ask me- What is your interests, passion, likes, etc or What you want to be, What is your goal/purpose and what not. And most of the time I give them answers as per that situation but at the same time, I speak to myself, looking inside and say, What the hell is wrong here….Why I can’t be everything or become anything or Why can’t I have all the goals and purposes that could ever exist for humans, etc. Weird!!! Right?? I know you might be thinking that I am stupid or out of my mind or anything like that. But like I said, to be honest with you here I am sharing the most real and natural thinking/feelings/situations that I have/had. So I always think that there should a way or path, or I don’t know…which can make this (to become everything) philosophy possible. I don’t even have “a point” idea about it. I am not even on that path as far as I can see or analyze. Now you might be thinking that hey bro- you have seen a lot of science fiction Hollywood movie, and just live a practical/ realistic life and don’t screw yourself. I can understand it but my answer to this is “No” it's not like that.  

Alright!!! Apart from my stupid thinking (which you think), let’s talk about some real kinds of stuff. Now let me tell you something about my self, I do have a day job (which I really like), my mom and sister. My father was in the military and now he is not with us, he passed away on 9 September 2007 due to the heart attack. So the death of my father played a major role in my personality and mentality which means I become more caring, conscious of many things, ground hearted, also alert at the same time, etc. I began to feel upset (a lot of time), began to think of many materialistic things which I would have got/received if my father would be alive, felt like I am weak (in many aspects) in comparison with others around me, etc. And after realizing and witnessing the most utter truth (as people say) of this human life which is “Death”, I began to think about “N” number of aspects of living this life. So, what could be the next thing, yes!! I began to work and study a little harder than earlier. I become more sincere and wiser (than what I used to be). And there were a lot of good and bad kinds of stuff happen which makes me even more bold and strong. I was studying at school also I was working and earning a very small amount as a part-time private home tutor, struggling with schedules/timing. But now I think I was actually enjoying that struggle phase by realizing some that I have more sense of understanding and responsibility in comparison with my classmates and other people around me. My mother was not happy with me most of the time because she felt bad looking at her high-school going boy working for money, spending extra hours, etc. When I was in class 8^th, I have realized that money is important for us in many different ways and so I started working even harder and harder. I started giving private home tuition to small kids below class 8^th when I was in class 9^th  but the best part is I was not only working for money but I was working to get some experience and revise my knowledge on various subjects. In this way I become good at Mathematics, analytical reasoning and science (physics, chemistry, and biology) and then I passed high school with 94% marks in aggregate. Guess what!!! After 3 years we (me and my family members) had real happiness and smile on our face after that long time. But then, unfortunately, there were a lot of crazy things happened in between the later 2 years, which created an enormous amount of disturbances in my studies which again hampered my confidence and moral towards success and achievements.

Now at present, I am learning and understanding various stuff which is mainly focused on personality development, world history, business/entrepreneurship, spirituality, meditation, yoga, god, nature, etc.

I realize that many people find it very difficult when it comes to being helpful, humble and ground hearted, etc for others, They really have no time for all these basic things, maybe something else is more important than the life itself.